透明 ~ Transparent

I can’t help it!
There is no meaning to your name,
those characters simply make sound.
When your body is pressed against my own,
I can’t move, in this alley, brick wall behind me, it’s rainy.
There is something terribly wrong with this picture,
I ignore your face in the mirror,
see that girl and the man with her,
you and I can’t deny,
their looks as they pass by.
Yes, I’m shy.
There is no meaning, I told you!
When I stare, I see through you!
Transparent,
I can’t help it!
I feel nothing real,
skin frozen numb,
I prevent suffering.
Rain drips from your fingertips,
I look away, close my lips.
You are just another meaningless waste of time.
Your hands still on my hips,
I’m motionless, my heart skips,
how far will you go?
His hand slowly slips
into my skirt,
he unzips.

23:37 June 28, 2009

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Worked in Kabukicho last night and made some cash. I did not sleep and went to Azabu Juban in the morning to meet a new random person named Tomomitsu. I ate soba (again) with him and had a yummy soy mango smoothie. Later in the day, my room mate left to live in Chiba, then I met Zero, again in the evening for coffee. He is kind.

soy mango

I do not know what will happen this week and I do not care (besides the Buck-Tick live on Wednesday!). I need to sleep.