Images of the future

Yesterday was a very busy day! Woke up at 7 and didn't get to bed til 4 in the morning!

I fell asleep at the library in the late afternoon, my textbook acting as a pillow. Went home and out to a lecture at Hillel, then ice cream, with my best friend (and now housemate) M. We were up late talking about the future afterward and I was thinking a lot about it... I told M that she was going to get married soon enough and we imagined the wedding. I think it would be so exciting! She's been dating her first boyfriend for years and years and they don't seem to ever have huge problems, so I think they will be together forever. Works for me! I've never been to an American wedding before and hers will probably be the first. She said I could be the maid of honor! What an honor! I am excited to wear a dress and drink champagne and have flowers and cake etc. in a legitimate setting... not to mention excited that my best friend would be married! I think that would be a nice day.

I will probably never get married. I will be stuck chasing "success" for the rest of my life. When M gets married, I will probably be in the middle of writing my PhD dissertation and railing uppers/cocaine in the bathroom. By the time her first baby starts walking, I'll probably be dating one of my female students and realizing that I'm a lesbian. Or something like that.